It has been a year since Ashley Salazar, star of “16 and Pregnant,” made the decision to give up her daughter for adoption. After agonizing over the choice, the MTV reality star came to the conclusion that her aunt and uncle would be able to provide a better life for her daughter Callie.
So where is Ashley now? A new interview, posted by Radar Online today, shows Ashley as struggling day to day.
“I honestly don’t think that I will ever be 100 percent confident in my decision,” she explained. “I suffer every day for it. Some days, I am right back to square one, feeling like I did in the hospital; confused, depressed, and uncertain. The only thing that I am confident in is that she is taken care of every day and has everything she not only needs, but could ever want, as well.”
While Ashley does feel regret from time to time, she recognizes that ultimately, she made the right choice for her daughter.
“I think I might have been a tad bit happier, but the stress would have canceled some of that happiness out,” Ashley answered when asked if she thought about life with Callie. “When I find out about all the expenses that my aunt and uncle have to take on, I feel relief. I do know, though, that Callie and I would have been just fine and happy together, but at what cost? I would never be around.”
While Ashley admits that adoption was the best choice for her daughter, she knows that it is not as simple for other girls in her position.
“Think long and hard about what you really want,” Ashley advised about contemplating adoption. “Weigh out your options – pros and cons. Think long and hard about what you want for your child, first of all. Try not to be so biased when your feelings get in the way, and try not to listen so much to other peoples’ inputs. It’s not worth it. It’s too confusing. You and of course, your child, are what matter the most. Lastly, I’m going to be honest, because I believe that teens need to know this before hand: adoption hurts like hell.”
Ashley has moved on from her days on the MTV show. She has left New York to return to Texas. Despite the absence of Callie in her life, Ashley still lives to make her daughter proud.
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